From Downfall to a Slow Rise

When the fall felt endless and im stumbling over the same sins multiple times
stumbling over the Same rock that seems to get bigger each time I tried to overcome it
and kick it aside
When the ladder to escape is even too far to climb
And I saw my past I thought was left behinde making a reoccurance
I felt like i was hanging in the balance - a leaf about to be blown in the wind
Questioning my efforts- did my race even begin?
Losing more and more of my righteousness and this sinful flesh arises
Abandoning God's word for just a day- then a few - weeks and laziness creeps in
Repenting and praying casually but subconciously drifting away left all these casualties  
inconsistencies
Closing my mouth shamefully because of my actions
And im suppose to be a follower of Christ
But ive learned that His love makes it worth it all to get back up from the fall
Im not alone and He helps me get back up even when im just slightly willing - Only God will love me despite my failures, my imperfections, only He will Love me like no other His Love is the Greatest and He will never leave nor forsake me despite my iniquites He corrects and convicts righteously to help me - He works in me to better my spirit- to overcome that stumbling block
He crumples it to peices and clears my path
I love God He is the Greatest and in time my whole heart, whole trust, faith, and Love will be in the Him forevermore -Amen